What I want out of my life

There are so many things I want to happen, and some people say that if you try, and have some faith, you'll get there in the end. I'm going to write what I want in the future, and see if I can strive to maintain my goals, and maybe one day say that I did it, and that I got through it all.

• I want to complete my 12 week college programme - 9 weeks, 2 days to go

• I want to complete a Veterinary Nursing Assistant course in September, and be close enough so as I can spend my week with my boyfriend, where I'm happy.

•  I want to move to England.

• I want to settle down, get married.

• I want to be able to help animals. I NEED to make a real difference.

• I want to be happy.

• I want my mum & my dad & my brother & my boyfriend to be happy.

• I want my dad to stay off the drink :(

• I want my dad to be depression-free at some point. I need to help him.

• I need to find the strength to help myself. But how? :| I need help :(

• I want me and my boyfriend to be together forever (awwww! mushy xD) & not be the usual 'get married, get divorced' couple.

• I want a baby, or a few xD a good few years from now. But I don't know if he does :/ I'm scared to bring it up. 

• I want God in my life  

If I think of anything more, I'll write a new blog ^^ xx

God's Love

You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16

x

Nanny's Poem

A poem that my Nanny's friend sent to my mum after my Nanny had died, & I thought it a good idea to put it on here just as a reminder for myself.

Merry Christmas From Heaven

I still here the songs
I still see the lights
I still feel your love
on cold wintery nights

I still share your hopes
and all of your cares
I'll even remind you
to please say your prayers

I just want to tell you
you still make me proud
You stand head and shoulders
above all the crowd

Keep trying each moment
to stay in His grace
I came here before you
to help set your place

You don't have to be
perfect all of the time
He forgives you the slip
If you continue the climb

To my family and friends
please be thankful today
I'm still close beside you
In a new special way

I love you all dearly
now don't shed a tear
Cause I'm spending my
Christmas with Jesus this year

10 silly/weird facts about meee xD

Thought I would put some bits n' bobs about me in a post...just for funs ^^ not that any of you are interested :P

1. I have one leg a bit shorter than the other...which makes me have a sort of waddle LOLLL

2. My main nickname is midget (I'm 5 foot :P) even my friends mum calls me it xD

3. I always make to-do lists with intentions of completing...and never actually do them! -.-

4. I'm shy, but if you talk to me more I don't shut up xD

5. I'm so overly-sensitive :/ One silly comment can turn my day upside down :(

6. I have low self-confidence. I worry what people think of me.

7. I'm not good at following God. Actually, I try...but im pretty rubbish at it :/

8. I wish my Eczema would go away! -.-

9. I miss my childhood...we always had so many people over at our house, now we never do :/

10. I have sorta sticky out ears xD LOL

There's actually a lot more but I can't think right now. I just want yous to know me a bit more ^^ will blog them all another time :P

xo

I wish things were a little bit easier

Will I ever have a friendship where I can be completely 100% me? I'm sick of making friends with people who just act like they're friends with me half of the time, or just strange people in general that can't make up their minds. I want to be able to trust someone :/

:/

I feel like I need to post another blog before I leave. I'm not really looking forward to college anymore. I feel like I'm back at school again. Not knowing whether my class is going to be full of class A asses like there have been before. I don't like the place where I'm going to college. I used to love where I lived; I considered it home. But now that I've moved away, I've realised how horrible it is, just because of some of the people in it, and I just hope I'm going to meet some of the nice ones, because I don't think I can handle 12 weeks of hating it.

I always get like this when I'm going somewhere like college or work. Maybe it's the dark mornings that depress me. I don't really know how to feel at the moment. & I miss him which doesn't help :/ but as long as he knows I love him, things might be okay. I hope I can stick this out & do something really great. So....wish me luck *sigh*

Love xo

P.S. Happy Valentines Day! :)